Gwen Frangs / Corrandulla / 26 June 2022
I have been reading the journal that I kept in 1991 recently and on Friday I came across the following word of prophecy that God gave me on 20 May 1991:
You are so limited in your understanding and yet you think you know so much. You let pride rule and pride makes you ignorant and blind. You think you know it all and yet you know very little. You think you know Me and yet, how little you know Me.
The humble man is the one who I can teach; the man who will put his hand in Mine and let me lead him into all truth. Put your hand in Mine. Humble yourself. Do not be stiff-necked and proud. Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God and I shall lift you up. You want to know how to help other people with their problems. How to answer them wisely. Well, wisdom and knowledge come from Me. Come to Me.
Word of prophecy 20 May 1991
I was a spiritual prodigy and I knew it. I built up a lot of pride about it. God had shown me a vision of fallen angels when I was about seven years old and I was counseling people regarding how to receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit when I was only sixteen at a large church where I was the only teenage counsellor being used by God in this way. At the time that He gave me this word of prophecy, I was studying at Bible college full time. So, God was spot on when He pointed out that I was proud and that I thought that when it came to spiritual matters I knew a great deal more than most people. However, events during the past thirty-two years have managed to knock some of that pride out of me. I discovered, through failing significantly on a number of occasions, that I was not the spiritual giant that I had thought that I was as a teenager and young adult.
After reading this prophecy on Friday afternoon I was cut to the heart because, although I have been very busy doing many things over the past thirty-two years, I don’t think that I have done what He asked me to do. I have come to Him at various times, particularly when I have needed something from Him. But, on the whole, I have avoided coming to Him on a regular basis during the past thirty-two years.
I feel like I have wasted thirty-two years, which I should have spent really getting to know Him.
I recognize that I am actually somewhat frightened of really getting to know Him because of the impact that it will have on my life. It will mean that I have to change on a daily basis as He purifies me and changing like that is pretty uncomfortable. He is like a purifying fire and when you spend time with Him it is uncomfortable because He burns away the impurities.
The irony is that I have this website and I spend a lot of time writing about Him. I just don’t spend enough time with Him, because it is actually easier to write about Him than to spend time with Him. What I realize is that the incites that He has revealed to me, which I have written articles about, have been given to me for my readers, because of His love for the readers and not because I have been leading a deeply spiritual life, because I haven’t. I have been ducking and dodging a great deal of what He has wanted to do with me, because I have wanted different things to those things that He has wanted for me.
What I have come to realize over the years is that He is so real. He is not a distant concept ‘God’ who you hear about in church. He is a real person and, as with any person, getting to know Him can be challenging. However, given that we are going to spend eternity with Him, I recognize that it would be wise to start getting to know Him really well now, on the earth, before being confronted by Him in Heaven.
I am sorry Lord that I have not spent that much time getting to know you over the past thirty-two years. I am sorry that I did not take what you said to Me more to heart and did not act upon it more seriously with the commitment and focus that Your words deserved. I hope that my readers will be wiser than I have been and will take the time to spend time with You and to really get to know You and will not let the time slip away as I have done. I probably would not have made the mistakes that I made if I had been spending time with You.
I hope that those who read this may be more courageous than I have been and actually spend sufficient time with Him. I am going to try and do better over the next thirty-two years.